I did not stop marching toward life.
-Neruda
Wounded as I was-
by the madmen,
the daft Hamlets with poems
in their hair,
the chill men who wanted
to fuck their way
into my warmth
& leave me
cold,
the half-baked
novelists, the doctors
who could not heal
themselves,
the actors
who could not remember
their lines,
the professors
I had to teach;
all the Persons
from Porlock
invading the heart
of my poem-
I did not stop
marching toward
love;
I did not seal off
my heart.
& then you appeared-
suddenly,
unexpectedly-
as life is always
unexpected.
The new baby
arriving
in the same radiance-
an ordinary face
suddenly turning
extraordinary-
eyes, nose, mouth
suddenly
indispensable,
suddenly
beautiful
beyond
explanation,
suddenly necessary
as rain.
Because
I did not stop marching,
because
I never let the scar tissue
form,
because
my heart is open
to ache,
because
my legs will twine
around a new lover
& mean it
(as if love could last)-
you
marched into my life.
You marched in
sloping in to the wind,
your hair combed
as if with a fork,
your face sweet & open
as a puppy's
& starving for love & for warmth
as a Dickens hero.
O my Pip,
my Oliver,
my Copperfield-
how I want to hold you
& make it all
all right.
Let me march
toward life
before you.
There is nothing to fear
but
stopping.
Erica Jong
http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/toward-life/
