A BAD work report, sick to the soul, ready
to die and then you belatedly admit you’ve been
experimenting with food despite my allergies,
adding a new sauce to all meat dishes
You tried Balsamic vinegar* and Worcestershire
sauce* before, earlier it was garlic and curry
and oil, now you only stop when I obviously fall
ill or go blind, this time I didn’t know
I suffered the pain in silence, THREE doctors
visits in a row, dying of discomfort but no
hormone problems thankfully, just chronic sinus,
I was the fool, could not do my work
A bad soldier at the office, let everyone down,
I had NO integrity, was disloyal, didn’t complete
anything because this allergy agonised to the
point of taking painkillers 24/7
If you want to destroy me, give me poison to
end my life, do not continually humiliate me like
this – even if I was a murderer in a former life
even if it is my Karma to suffer
Do not poison my food lightly so I linger on, do
it massively, kill me efficiently, speed it up,
I accept that I am as guilty as the worst criminal
and sinner that has ever been
So kill me QUICKLY. The conclusion is I was born
to be humiliated and I am thoroughly ashamed of
myself, I am an abject, useless human being,
too sick to go on with life….
*Balsamic vinegar causes my eyes to go out of focus
*Worcestershire sauce causes debilitating migraine
*The latest experiment caused chronic sinus and headache
Margaret Alice
http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/2010-06-04-humiliated-rev/
