Face turning pale, her breath failed with a start.
Being half-loved had dissembled her heart.
Quietly subdued, yet inwardly weeping
Over news, that 'tho discreetly taken,
Was shockingly hard.. Scars she'd been keeping
Warily disguised, she yet quite shaken,
Disclosed to her soul. Alone now, wholey
Inept at accepting this mind-blowing
Note.She would miss him so much, this going
She knew would leave holes that she couldn't show.
Admitting her treasure could always erode,
And future dreams be dissolved, now events
Uncover routine as unseemly. Exploding
With disbelief, grieving, she later repents.
Knowing her life as already ordered
By sometimes tortured assent, she borders
Now on disquieting alarm, this scheming
To please the unpleaseable leaches her.
Drop by wearying drop, her heart leaning
Towards dulling acceptance, now subsides
Into half-life again. Hopes once believed
Are left hanging by threads spread so finely.
She hardly now measures a truth from a lie.
Knowing well how to disguise, she just sighs.
Fay Slimm
http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/a-quiet-disguise/
