Listen
can you hear it?
no one can
mind boggling. just twisted shit
there is no blood, there are no tears. the strong one is now
just numb. fuk the rhymes. this is real. i starve. not for ANA, but cause i just don't deserve food. I have done so much evil. it consumes me. trying to be nice is all just a big lie. i don't care what other's think. no matter what another may say to me or about me. they don't suffer. I try too take the pain. I don't hurt. it's all just nothing. I dropped off the face of the earth just to be forgotten. since I have been down here i have forgotten me. so frail, so weak. not even enough energy to speak. everyone knows when it's time to go. I am empty, one with no soul. when i offered it up all i got in return was a blankness. a void. I am not a loving sweet woman. i want so badly to take a human and smash their head to the pavement. this entire 'nice thing' is not me. it's really fuking killing me. so i am told 'see you on the other side' wrist in front of the heater, belt around the arm. the time is now. but just to see, one last cut....the blood is flowing down the right arm. i must be alive even though i feel so dead. not ever have i allowed another to take me down. ms. superior you know who i am speaking of. in terms of wasps and bleach. there is only room in hell for one. every day is a struggle not to sleep forever. walking down a street people bump into me. am i fading away? by no means am i depressed. just angry at me for being weak. so weak that it feels so difficult to even speak
neo riddick
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