I’ve been looking for a reason for us to have fallen out,
a reason for you to be so evasive and
act different ever since I confided in you and
told you a few intimate things. I didn’t scare you off, did I?
I don’t think I said anything that might have
offended or hurt you in any way.
This is a very awkward and uncomfortable situation;
I care a lot about you and yet when we meet
we don’t even get together
to talk anymore… it feels so strange!
The time I wanted to say goodbye,
You said, never say goodbye to me
You said you'd always love me.
Always we'd be friends.
But soon I saw you wanted nothing of me,
and then I understood that's how it ends.
You said, 'Well, it's much harder than I thought.'
I guess it's always easier to lie.
I’ve tried to find out why and to analyse
what could have made us grow apart but
I couldn’t find any plausible reason.
In the beginning, when I told you about my dream,
My secret wish, you seemed interested and wanting to be part of it;
but then you backed up and now you treat me with such
indifference that it makes me feel uncomfortable.
You said, 'Well, ask me anything you want.'
But I was much too frightened to ask why.
I guess it doesn't matter why we failed,
or why I love you after what you've done,
or why the harshest truths must be unveiled
after the last train has come and gone.
I miss you and I love you, even though
what happened lies too deep for me to know.
Mary Wismer
http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/never-say-goodbye-t-mcrae/
