Today I cannot love, today
there is a wall that’s built, I see
and toss a brick myself.
One atop and mortar it.
Today I cannot love, today
the wind is strong and blowing me
away, the birds are flying backwards.
Forth and back, I follow them,
and standing, still not moving here
or there. No movement even
had I wanted to, it’s here
I see you walking towards me.
Today I cannot love, today
it’s battlegrounds and blood
and words and bullets
circling the heart.
In one of us the ears
sit crying in the corner.
The other lost his tongue;
it killed itself in spite
But I am sure the moon has asked
to leave the world and go off
to be its own, but what my love
would night be like without a moon.
Ben Paynter
http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/i-love-you-most-when-i-do-not/
