I was watching me
watching you
watching me
(both of us wondering what...the first move should be)
but Lord
overawed by the great love so obviously ours
I...dithered
(obviously the obvious)
you...dawed
(wasn't so obvious) .
IF ONLY - I hadn't got scared...
WHAT IF - you hadn't become afraid...
(which delayed our hugs and kisses for years...for years) !
'F**k it! F**k it! F**k it! '
I admonished an astonished wall
and you swear you swore the same next door
but added a few 'F**k its' more!
Love at first sight -
- and we just couldn't get it right!
I still miss those years
we could have had together
- but didn't!
'What ifs' & 'If Onlys'
grew like stdalactites and stalagmites
from cielings and from floors.
All I ever wanted was
everything.
All I ever wanted was to be
(unquestionably)
...yours.
Dónall Dempsey
http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/a-bad-case-of-the-what-ifs-if-onlys/
