I’ve seen God smile
In autumn trees
After most of the leaves
Have fallen away to reveal him.
I told him, I love you,
But I’m lonely and sad
And in a cold place,
And I know that everything
I value will one day perish
Just like my elusive happiness.
Uriah Hamilton
http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/i-don-t-really-blame-god/