“Scream and cry in your eternal sufferance,
Always in yourself, in that black hole,
In that abyss you’ll stay, forever doomed! ”
Howls the wind, blowing in my ear,
As I run towards a lonely house,
In this frozen desert.
There is no silence, before healing,
No bliss, before you wish the pain is over...
A vampire’s kiss drowns in my flesh,
Sucking away all of my will to live...
Seductive, elusive as a cheating lover,
Gentle and caring as a mother,
My pain stays with me!
Morning’s wrathful kiss awakes all of my senses,
Like the whipping of a chain on sensitive skin!
I know it does damage to my mind,
But I cannot stop...
Maybe I love my pain,
Memories of a past life,
Memories, images from my past
Unfold before my eyes...
Daylight, nightfall,
Pain, wishing for a cure,
The wish brings even more pain,
My senseless sensuality, my crave,
My biggest pain...
Crystal clear night falls again, over me,
But this time I almost drag its hands, towards me,
For the night to come upon me,
Cover me deeply!
Cover me completely,
Winter nights are like this...
So lonely, feeling abandoned.
It doesn’t matter how hard I try,
The pain is too big, too deep,
For me to displace it...
The wind and the wolves howl outside,
Giving this dismal scent to winter’s melody...
My pain rests inside of me!
©Elya Thorn. Do not republish without permission!
Part of 'Dark Whisperings and Invocations'
Elya Thorn
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