Nothing seems right, just want to shout
Comfort not any more, just want to break out
When everything in life turns out to be an illusion
Drowning me in the hell waters, darkness, depression confusion
Want isolation, escape from the world of mine
Not any more in this world of sunshine
Into the darkness of my own sick mind of confession
Longing deep for life to go into recession
I cant take life, there is nothing to gain
Wont take he hurt, not any more, cant take the pain
Resulting self made from my addiction
Of making emotion physical, my physical conviction
Days go by, worthless waste of time
Hating things, hating life, not coping is suddenly a crime
When things turn out like u never wanted, turns out all wrong
Trying, not any more, fixing things takes too long
The tears flow thick as a stream
The knife in my hand as if in a dream
If only I could sleep it off and wake to it being all being good
Everything as it always should
One day I will wake up and regret my life
Turn myself from depression to the blade of a knife
Die in a pool of blood on the floor
Struggling with life not any more
If it could all come down to not any more
Do it all over again, go back to before
But its not worth it, nothing is ever worth it
Even if I could it would still turn out shit.
Saz Fairy
http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/not-any-more/
