you seem to have this genuine notion that I possess a magnanimous heart
- and I believe our time together had calcified that image of mine in your head...
- after all, you have seen me in so many times give things, trivial and otherwise, to those who ask - and to those who need more...
i must confess, however, that I nonetheless remain extremely greedy
- that even if I recognize charity to inhabit my being, I remain obstinately selfish...
- for even if I concede that your existence entwines with that of others, I can never bear to share you - not a single part of you...
you must understand now - why what you asked of me is outright improbable...
you must realize now - why I rather be hurt and lost and exist in loneliness without you...
- as I would rather lose you in giving, than to keep you in sharing.
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/giving-and-sharing/
