I can’t stand to see my face in the mirror,
Nothing holds appeal to me anymore.
I’m so depressed, the end seems nearer,
I’ll do the world a favor and disappear forevermore.
Each passing day I withdraw more into my own world.
That world is filled with the endless dark and cold,
Lonely in the endless snow, in a ball I’m curled.
It is here I’m doomed to stay and grow old.
All this because I reach out and none reach back.
I thirst for that someone special to hold,
That special person my lonely heart does lack.
As I reach, even just for friends, they curse me.
I am shunned by the world friend, family, and foe.
What have I done wrong? Why do we disagree?
The question matters not, it doesn’t cure my woe.
Even now I can hear the calling of the knife.
I’m thinking this way? Life is so unfair,
I fear the pain to end my own life.
After all this time, I can still feel my heart tear.
The hatred hurts more than any blade.
Wherever I am I always feel their cold stare,
The hatred makes me feel cold, cold and betrayed.
Yes, the hatred is now more than I can bear.
I live in misery with all of my hearts lust,
Turned from, I’m doomed to loneliness even more.
With all of my searching none my love can trust,
My being with someone is to be nevermore.
Cory Calder
http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/lifes-pain-2/
