This is so scary
Not having control of my body
Not having control of me
This is so scary
people don't understand
people just can't see
how much this is hurting me
This is so scary
wishing I wasn't this person
wishing I was a delusion
that I wasn't real
If only people could understand how I feel
the heaviness in me
the sadness in me
the pain in me
This is so scary
wanting to belong
wanting to be heard
I cant even describe the fullness of the pain
it comes upon me physically and emotionally
I suppose I am insane
wishing I wasn't the same
It's like my life is a game
someone is up there, playing with it
This is it
this is how it's meant to be
this is my life
this is me
Nicole Buckland
http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/i-m-scared-of-my-life/
