I did not realize
what i had lost until i lost-ed it
i lost my child hood home
i lost an uncle that can never come back
i lost my birth mom cause she don't care
i lost some pets but did not mean to me as much to me as
my dog Sindbad which i loved so much
i lost few boyfriends
but i lost my true love four days ago
i lost my best Friend and Friends in between
in my life i have lost a lot
but i did not really realize
how much
those things meant to me until now
until now
that i look back and remember every thing
i have lost
alot more things like relationships with Friends and family,
i have lost allot
but try my hardest to not let that hold
me back in life
this is a time line to the things that was and still are most important things to me.
i am 16
have lost more things
than some old Lady's
i cant believe
i took so long
to realize
how much these things matter
how much i really do care about these things
but i did not really fully
understand until they were gone
like my mother
my real mom
when i lived with her
it was hell i was abused
but i was only 1-4
when i lived with her
but i can tell you
every thing that i remember
like it was yesterday
i miss her
because it has always been
my dream that
i would have a mom to grow with
to talk to and to understand me
but i have came to realize
she cant be in my life
she does not want to be any ways
it will be eleven years
seance i have seen her
or even spoken to her
on my birthday
so as u can imagine
my birthday is hard
but i don't want to
have her in my life
cause of what she has done
courtney woolley
http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/what-i-relized-i-have-losted/
