Why was I so stupid
Why did I let them get me down
Why did I let them drive me to this point
Where there is almost no return
Why did I just sit there
Letting them brainwash me
Letting them tell me I was the problem
I was the one to blame for all
I was so young
I just trusted what they said
Trusted them
There is my mistake
I grew up
Blaming myself
Hating myself
All because of them
And why
Like how could they do this
HOW
They broke my soul at such a young age
I lived in darkness
Not even knowing of the light
Afraid to feel
Afraid to hurt people
So afraid to be myself
That I ended up losing myself
Now that I see all this
I am left with but a shell of a person
So how am I to start living
When I am not all there
I want my life back
I want to be whole
I no longer wanna be broken
For fnck sakes I know I am not the one to blame
I am not the fncking problem
As much as you both all want to just say that I am
I AM NOT
I did nothing but try to make you happy
I lost out on so much
cause I was too busy living for you
Well screw that
I will now pick my pieces
And leave
With the little sanity I have left
Thanks to you all
Hopefully
I will be able to solve the puzzle that is me
Then I will be whole
As one should be
Scarlet .....
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