And again tonight I feel like I can’t breathe
Again I feel like this life is crushing down on me
And I’m too weak to go on
It seems like everything in my world is grey
And I’m dying in want of color
And I’m losing all my warmth
It feels like I’m just the ugliest thing on earth
And everyone is laughing out at me
And I’m trying to hide myself under my shadow
I’m trying to keep me sober
And it only lets me see what I really am
And nothing changes when I open my eyes
I’m tired of hanging on to this life
And there is no one left to blame it on
And there is no place left for me to go
Again it seems like I’m standing alone in the rain
And there is no one to behold my death
And there is nothing that can hold me back
Again it feels like there still is a little left to be hoped
That everything gonna be okay one day
That like everyone I’ll be fine one day
But it’s “today” that’s killing me
And I wish I were just a little bit stronger
So that I can survive this loneliness
To see one more bright dawn
To witness one more crimson sunset
But I sense the life in me expire
And there is no one there to save me
And there is one to lend me a little dream
As I whisper these words dying alone in silence
I find a blackened piece of cloud listening to me
And with a sigh then I close my eyes
And with a fading smile I leave this world
Knowing that after I’m long gone
There will be a black rain coming down from sky
And the wondering people will take shelter under their roofs
And my rain won’t touch anybody
Just like my sorrows have never done
But I hope when the rain is over
There will be a dazzling sun smiling down at you
And there will never be a black rain interrupting your lives
Nor there will be a hollow lament filling your air
For I’m long gone from your world
And you people can cheer now….
RoNoK NoRoK
http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/blackened-cloud-crying/
