It’s time you know of what I am,
I’m not as perfect as you think
Actually I’m not perfect,
I’m not human,
I’m not an angel as you think,
I’m a mistake,
I’m nothing,
Sure you think I am,
But I’m not I’m not what you think I am
, I’m not some angel sent by god to help you
, I’m just another pointless, useless creature put on this earth for nothing,
You say you love me,
But how can you love someone that’s nothing?
You say I’m everything that I’m not anything,
Maybe to you I am but to me and everyone else I’m sure I’m nothing,
Nothing but a speck of dirt on someone’s clothing,
An old rag worn out useless,
That’s what I am just someone to walk over,
To take no recognition to,
That’s what I am, why don’t I just end it here and now?
End this feeling of loneliness and pain
I’m all alone now anyway no one here besides me,
So why not now?
Why wait until I cause more pain,
That’s it my mind is made,
This silver blade is my only way out,
My last though is of you,
How you helped me through this,
But now you’re gone and I’m all alone,
So why not now,
Take the gun and end this suffering,
This loneliness
, This pain,
All ends tonight on this fatal day,
Raise the blade and cut my wrist this is how it ends,
In a pool of blood is where they find me…
With a smile on my face.
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Yuki Shuiski
http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/i-am-nothing-so-why-not-end-the-pain/
