I’m digging my own grave here,
And that doesn’t bug me at all.
I feel at ease, though flow these tears.
And I'm not the least bit worried.
I know I’m sinking
In my love for you.
I've got to say some things,
Its something I must do.
I apologize for the times I've let you down
And the times I've not been around.
I apologize for the times I've left you wondering
Or gave you anything but a warm feeling.
I apologize for the time I wasted without you here,
And for all the time we were apart.
But above everything...
In spite of all my grievances...
I apologize most for not telling you I love you
Every time it's crossed my mind.
Maybe it's because I'm too choked up,
Or because I think you'll find it weird.
Maybe it's because I'm too caught up
In thinking you can somehow hear my every thought...
To realize that it’s impossible.
But some part of me
Can’t help but feel
That you know everything I'm thinking,
And its so unreal.
And I’m sorry
That I'm not going to hold back
If I catch myself drowning in your love,
As I so often do.
There’s something irresistible
About you.
And I can't apologize for much more.
But as I've said before...
I apologize so deeply
For not always telling you I love you
When it enters thought.
But just for the record,
I love you more than my mind can comprehend.
I love you more than I've loved anything.
I love you more and more, and will to the end.
I love you more than I can even begin to explain.
And I apologize,
For not saying that more.
Sarah Bursich
http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/untitled-01-09-05/
