if you go i will not run after you
not anymore
not in a decade
not in a light year
not in a lifetime.
im tired of pretensions
tired of closing my ears
tired of forcing myself to forget
tired of letting things pass by.
now i catch myself before i fall
and i grasp for air
that wasn't there before.
i shut my eyes too long
i shut my mouth too long
i bind my hands too long
too long. much too long enough.
now i put a halt
to this swaying world.
swinging from side to side
but i remain in the middle
you remain to glide.
always searching...
the problem is
no one can find me. there.
© 02.01.05
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Velvet Astraea Dido
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