I walk around with a smile on my face. I got friends with feelings to embrace. Is that the case? You don't want me to be happy? I can't stand being discriminated on how my soul feels free. The last time I've known, I was happy when I was a little child. Yeah, I was a crybaby, but look at me now. I always looked in the mirror thinkin' I was ugly. Or was I kiddin' myself... Am I really an ugly duckling? I always wanted to be a princess, but never could be. I just didn't meet standards to pampered, you see? I hated myself, like everyone else did. Can't believe I'd do what everyone else did... Can't break myself from being timid. I dreamt of being 'original' in my own state. Everywhere I go, my attitude can't ever stay straight. I'm judged each and every minute of my life. Why can't I be me, even though I give you the best of me? What else would you want? I stay in my own place, unless I have to speak. You think my mind is weak, that's why I'd hate to stay around you. I can't seem to breathe when I'm around, in a crowd. When you step forward, I step back. I can't be down with some shit you tryna pull on me, like that. I thought my friend would stay with me always. When I'd cry, you'd be there to pick me up. But I doubt it, 'cause now I really don't give 5 fucks. I let you be, thinkin' we'd still be cool, but now I can't even trust you. I don't, will not and never will feel what we could've turned to be. Me being so naive, thinkin' you were one of my few guardian angels, but you couldn't fly that long for me. But when you remember all the shit we had, been through, seen, done, and said... Remember, you ALWAYS had the best of me.
Lady Lyrical Kay
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